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"If there's one thing that makes you sad,
there will be another thing that will make you happy. "

♥ Saturday, June 26, 2010

i just wanted to write

hmms,

went for PHSS BBQ gathering on friday.
Met some teachers and alot of other classmates &schoolmates.
Ate a little, sang a little, played a little and talked alot!
it was overall quite alright, but i dont fee like mentioning the details ;P

Why the relationship between humans can change so drastically? i dont like that ): ): ):
just felt that the history might be repeating itself.
It feels the same way just like 4 years ago.
I wish it wont turn out that way.
It will hurt more than one person, but they just dont seem to realise that.
Everything is becoming more &more meaningless.
Memories now are just sarcasm to the situation now.
I hate it.

People are making me losing faith in friendship.
I dont understand, why some people just treat friendship like nothing instead of cherishing it.
It will just end with 2 kind of ending.
People just start to find faults in each other, quarrel each other and eventually fall apart.
Where friendship is where even after you learn about the person's bad point, you will still accept it as it is part of the person and you cherish the friendship.
I know it's you.
But let the bygones be bygones, i dont wish to be involved in another storm.
I only want remember happy memories like how we started as friends, how we chatted, how we spent time together.
Let it go, if you have not. No point clinging on it.
We're 17 already, mature enough.

Another, is when both of you went separate ways in terms of maybe different school or classes, people will just start to distant from each other.
They talk lesser, meet up lesser and care about each other, &eventually the person is replaced by someone new they met in their life.
Eventually, they will stop contacting each other.
Where friendship is where even if you dont see each other everyday, the importance of them remains unchanged and they cannot be replaced.
All the promises that we made together, all the things we done together, all the memories we shared together ..
Did you forget them already?
I haven.

For one good news that i just learnt about,
I'm in for the TPSU SUB-COMM! ;D ;D ;D
together with some of my friends like eliot, quraishi, canice, royston and laisi ..
hahahs (: (: (:

gotta chiong my work already :/
byes ^^

11:43 PM

♥ Thursday, June 24, 2010

i just wanted to write

hmms,

firstly,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CALLY! ;D

quite long never post le although i have alot to say ..
So i shall start now! ;D

):
19th June,
Was suppose to meet my project members, 7 people, for LCS project at 10am.
Consisting of Angela, Benedict, Myself, Ke Jun, Jing Tong, Laisi &Farah.
Reached there on time even though i slept at 5am the night before and meaning i woke up at 8am.
Saw Farah there, hence we decided to wait in the library for the rest of my group mates.
Kejun said he had something on, hence cant turn up.
Laisi said had something emergency, hence backed out at last minute.
Until 10.30am, none of them were here yet.
Texted them, none replied.
Farah and I started doing up the slides and researching by ourselves.
At around 1pm, we decided to leave.
Then, Angela texted me saying she overslept and asked whether we were still in school anot.
Was to upset to reply here, and we went home.
I'm absolutely disappointed with them.

20th June,
again had to meet up with my project members for LSM group project with 5 people at 10am.
Consisting of Ing Hong, Wei Lun, Nathan & Jing Tong.
Similarly, i still slept at 5am plus, and woke up at 8am due to my excel project.
&i reached on time again.
Saw Ing Hong &hence we settled down at a table.
Nathan said he had to go for church hence will be reaching later.
Waited around 10.30am, no one else turned up.
Text all of them, again.
None replied too.
Decided to go home and meet up online to discuss.
Told nathan and he agreed.
They disappointed me, again.
At night, weilun actually msned me and asked "So you all finished the project already? -.-"
That pissed me off.

I was really super stressed up then, when i had to chiong my excel project, and the other two group projects is due soon &they all just seems to not give a damn about it and expecting me to do everything. For goodness sake, there aint any leader appointed, hence im definitely not one.
Why am i always the one taking the initiative, doing all the research &doing most of the work.
Its a group project, mind you.

21st June,
Finally completed my excel project &handed it up.
A BIG THANKYOU to JAZVAN, CLEMENT, JIAN HAO &YUN HAO for helping me in my excel project (: (: (:

Then it was LCS lesson, all other groups presented their ppt.
Only our group didnt.
Nathan &Jingtong didnt come to school.
We lied when she asked us for reason.
&Weilun told me that he overslept on that day, woke up at 3pm.
Hence didnt turn up.
Was pissed off again, he actually had the face to say that.

After the lesson, my classmates started talking to me about the projects &my project members cause i told some of them the story above.
I finally cried, infront my classmates, after so many months.
I was thoroughly disappointed, upset, angry with them &feeling super stressed up.
It was an emotion outbreak.
But that gave me a chance to see who cares for me, thanks friends (:

Didnt have a good sleep ever since 18th, cause had to do all those projects and all the slides the editing were done by me. That's why you see me still online until so late for that few days ):

;D
22nd June,
went for the TPSU SubComm interview together with Quraishi, Kejun, Nathan &Peishan.
Was interviewed together with Quraishi, i assume that i said quite well ..
Hope i'm able to get in, together with my friends (: (:
&joyce will stop harping on the topic that i dont have a CCA ;D

24th June,
went for CSA lesson today, got back our CSA mid-sem theory results.

Warning: The content below is only for people who loves &care for me. Not for those who will mind i haolian or jealous or whatever.
&this is my blog, i can post whatever i want! (: (:

I got 45/50 &im the top for my class! ;D ;D ;D
My efforts has finally paid off.
Yay! ^^
I was super estatic for the rest of the lesson, hahahas :3

Hmms, will be going for PHSS gathering tomorrow after school.
There's scarfo dinner again on wednesday, wonder should i go anot.
If my close friends didnt turn up, i will solo again &which i dont want.
So, should i ?

i lost count of the days, i no longer hope for that miracle.
But i still hope that's not the ending for the story :/

10:50 PM

♥ Wednesday, June 16, 2010

i just wanted to write

Hellos everyone!

firstly,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JAZVAN! (:

Went to compass point today, to go to the Singtel shop, hoping that they can help me solve my wireless connection problem after calling to Singtel customer service hotline twice on friday and monday and going to Fujitsu maintainence centre yesterday.

When i called Singtel for the first two times, they couldn't solve my problem hence concluded that there might be a problem with my laptop.
Hence i went to check my laptop at the Fujitsu maintainence centre, but the person was able to connect to their internet without any problems &i'm also able to connect to wireless @sg very easily.
Therefore, there's no problem with my laptop!

When i reached the Singtel shop today with my mum, the person asked me to call another singtel number as they dont provide technical support :/
&sadly, when i wanted to buy my laptop casing where i found a puma one that i like that RSH, i couldnt find it anymore at there. Most probably they dont have stock at compass point already, might be going to centre point or some other places to check it out or maybe just settle for another one.

When i reached home and i called the number that the Singtel person gave me, it was like linking back to the number that i called previously. So the person had another try &miraculously she succeeded in solving the wireless connection problem!
I'm super duper happy ;D ;D
hahahas, finally a load off my mind!

Will be going to the Supreme Court tomorrow, &meeting my primary school friends after that.
Finally settled down for a date for my group projects, hence have to go back to school on Friday, Saturday and Sunday morning.
T.T have to wake up super early .. haish ..
Also, will have to choose our CDS soon, but i've yet to make my choice!
&break is coming to an end and i have not touched my work!
will be super busy for the next few days, and probably to whole of first week of school re-open.
Kambateh!

anw, just a random question.
Grey or Gray?
I know both are correct, but which is better?

&Kuromi is my new love (:

11:43 PM

♥ Tuesday, June 15, 2010

i just wanted to write

Hmm, went out with my secondary friends today!

met daniel &samuel at cp today. Samuel was late &made us waited for very long! O:
we took 161 and after like awhile,then we realised that we're proceeding in the wrong direction! ;P
then we quickly get off the bus, chiong opposite street &boarded the 161 which was already at the bus stop. hahahas .
Then met wenxun at the interchanged &we changed bus to go to RP!
Met Carmen, Joyce, Daphne &Ricky outside the classroom.
Slacked at RP, ate some food and played some games!
&&the waffle there is nice! Im so going to buy it everytime i go RP, hahahs :3
Then Me, Joyce, Carmen, Daphne, Daniel, Samuel &Wenxun went to Causeway point.
Bought some snacks &tibits at NTUC! bought my caramel corn ^^
Met Sixian, who chiong all the way from her school to causeway point to meet us, outside the cinema &we went to watch THE KARATE KID together!
the movie was super nice! loved it! (: (:
Ricky came to find Carmen after the movie,
then i bought some cakes &tarts as my dinner :X
cause they all were not hungry, &im the only one hungry!
soooooo weird!
Sixian &Wenxun went home first, as they were rushing for time.
Rest of us took 161 home together! (: (:

I LOVE FRIENDS!
they totally cheered me up today ..
&I want to see them again real soon! :3
why i just cant seem to stop hoping that i will run into you where ever i go :/

12:54 AM

♥ Sunday, June 13, 2010

i just wanted to write

Hellos everyone!

I went to my xiaoyi's house today to visit them with my mum, and had dinner together with them, my 4th aunt and my ahma.

Trained to her super far house at boon lay with my mum.
When i reached her house, playing with my little cousins was my only responsibility. Lols.
I played all types of guy's toys with them ..
hahahs, like guns, aeroplanes, dinosaurs, legos etc.
didnt played all these before as i've no guy sibling at home, hence no guy's toys.
this is a brand new experience for me.
&we drew too .
I drew the Forever friends bear, the wishing upon a star picture.
My aunts &my cousins all said it was nice &i was talented O:
It reminds me of that i wanted to go design course actually ..
But nevermind, i love law too (:
I super love them, Aaron &Alfred .
The only guys that i dare to say that i love them ;P
Then we had dinner at a restaurant in a shopping mall ..
The food was super delicious .
Then, my aunts also gave us souvenirs they got for us from their Korea trip (:

My mood was totally cheered up by the two brothers, hahas.
They made me forget all the things that have been troubling me &realise how simple can this world be (:
thanks, guys.

Suddenly next week my schedule is so packed &people started asking me to go out O:
I'm afraid i dont have the time to settle my lappie's problem &to do my homework .
Not mentioning project :/

my schedule !

14th - going out with secondary school friends, going to rp first before going to catch a movie together ;D
15th -going for a hair-cut to cut my super out-of-shape hair.
&probably have to complete some of my homework :/
16th - no dates, so planning to stay at home &complete my work!
17th - Supreme court visit! will be going for my primary school gathering after that!
Hoping that will be able to ask my project-mates to do project in the morning before the visit >.<

21st ! start of school, again! ):

I feel like smsing people nowadays, but i dont know who to sms, what to sms about .
Hence, waiting for people to sms me!
But even if my friends did that, often the chat will end quite soon cause we dont have any more topics to talk about ):
i dont know what should i do :/

&saw these on blogshops &i love it ! (:
feel like getting it, but im overspending already ! O:

(: (: (:

11:59 PM

♥ Friday, June 11, 2010

i just wanted to write

Proudly introducing to you ..

Fujitsu LH530 Black - CHINHUI'S new personal laptop! ♥♥♥

I bought it at PC show on 10th June 2010! ;D ;D ;D
&this is the first night im spending with my laptop, :P
and my first post typed with it! ^^

bought it at around $1200 + with alot of freebies thrown in by the salesperson, hahahas :P :P
Loved the appearance of my laptop, it got the shimmering effect on it's glossy glossy surface.
Very nice, cool &trendy!

the salesperson for Fujitsu was very convincing and nice!
&he knows the products well, i was totally convinced by him (:
Unlike other salesperson that i met today, who was unable to give me a proper explanation of their home product :/
i didnt expect myself to buy it so soon, was suppose to just collect information about all the different brands and laptops, analyse at home, make a decision and finally buy it on Saturday.
In the end, i bought it after spending probably less than 3 hours at the PC show O:
but im satisfied with my new laptop (: (: (:

But there's one problem now, it has problem connecting to the internet wirelessly ..
Only able to surf the net when i connect a wire from my modem to my laptop, hence typing this post in the living room O:
will have to settle it myself tomorrow by calling Singtel for help .
the other stuff like downloading softwares &registering online i will do it after i settled this main problem first (:

anw, i saw 3 friends at PC show today ..
will be going there again on saturday!
hope to see more of my friends ..
must call me if you see me there, okay? (:
cause there's going to be alot people &i might just missed you .

ohhhhhya!
I've yet to decide a name for my laptop!
cannot use blackie already, cause it's the name for my sist laptop already .
I shall think of a "cool-er" name :D
feel free to give me suggestions too! ^^

p.s CHINHUI LOVE YOU, my laptop (: ♥♥♥

2:38 AM

♥ Thursday, June 10, 2010

i just wanted to write

SHE NEEDS TO START STUDYING! x.x

5 days have passed ever since my 2 weeks of term break started, &i've not done anything meaningful or constructive.
All i did for the past 5 days was sleep at 3am, Wake up at 5pm .
Wake up, watch TV, Eat Dinner, Use computer &Sleep.
This routine went on for 5 full days!
I wonder which right mind of mine will allow myself to do that.
I wanted to stop that but i cant.

Was suppose to wake up at 10am today &meet my friend at 11am .
I remembered i turned on my alarm but when i woke up at 10.20am, there wasnt any alarm switched on.
Normally i will be woken up by my alarm &i will switch it off, I am suppose to have memory of myself doing that, but this time i didnt.
Then i went back to sleep.
Few minutes later, my friend smsed me that the outing was cancelled .
I was kinda upset &disappointed, cause i wanted to go out and change my horrendous daily routine.
Apparently, i failed .
Then, went back to sleep again .
I'm quite amazed by how easily i can wake up &fall asleep back again for a few times in a row .
This is the main reason why i can wake up at only 5pm ;X

Will be going for the IT show tomorrow &saturday to gather information about laptops &to get my VERY OWN PERSONAL lappie! ;D :D
hmms, i really want to go out.
No matter with who, doing what . I want to go out .
But just seems the people around me doesnt have that time .
Even for projects, my members seems to be all so busy &cant even have a common date to come out and do our projects.
I'm getting worried &pissed at the same time ): ):
but yet, i dont feel like asking them for dates again cause i know i wont get any results .

anw, should i change my blog's URL?
i feel like doing so as the more i look at it, the more wrong i feel it is.
&i've thought of some possible new URLs to replace it .
but it's kind of hassling to do so, cause need inform other people etc. (?)
so, should i ?

I really feel like breaking that promise, but i know i should not &i will not .
but i never had regretted making that promise.
15days . how long more can i hold ?

12:39 AM

♥ Wednesday, June 09, 2010

i just wanted to write

...

i wish i can ..

. hate you, but i know i couldn't bring myself to do so .
. stop thinking about you, but i tried &i failed .
. don't care about it so much, but i just couldn't .
. stop checking your blog, your wall, or whether are you online or not, but i just couldn't stop myself .
. don't care about you so much, but it just comes into my mind .
. stop writing about "you" &hoping you will realize it's "you" I'm referring to, but i cant help it .
. stop all these negative emotions, but the cause of it is always on my mind .

i really wish i can, but i know i cant.
&i hate this chinhui .

referring to a few people, not just one .

1:02 AM

♥ Monday, June 07, 2010

i just wanted to write

hmms,

have been rotting at home ever since school ended temporarily ..
Couldnt sleep at all last night, the last time i saw my clock it was 5.30am in the morning ..
Then i guess i fell asleep, &woke up at 5pm .. ;X
&the side effect was headache.
I guess this is the first time in my life that i toss &turn on my bed and couldnt sleep until so late.
Last time the lastest was only until 3am or 4am ..
this is weird.
Then i used touch to surf the net, then i saw one possible answer to it .
Wondering, if it's really the reason or just coincidence.

9th - most probably going for cycling if there's no hiccups.
10th &12th - going to the IT for my lappie ! ;DD
17th - Supreme Court Visit! O:

i've tried to settle a date for my group project &made the first move.
But only 4 replied to me out of 6.
Everyone's so busy. Work or travel .
I gave up .
Let's shall just die okay.

I want to go for an hair cut, it's getting out of shape.
Actually, it's terrible.

I've been thinking about it for the past few days, you &your promise.
Do you still remember? do you even mean it? Or is it just an casual remark?
I wish it wasn't. I'm waiting for you to fulfil your promise.

Talking about promises,
It's been 13 days since i made the promise.
Well, should i be happy or sad ?
happy that i kept my promise?
sad that you didnt made the move?
Yes, i should just give up &make the promise eternal .

&i just realise my phone is being good at the wrong time.
It become very quiet ever since i came to poly .
Is it my problem? or the environment?
I wish it continues nudge me &play the songs.
But yet who will entertain me?
&i dont want to make the first move anymore.

Last thing, when will i end all these negative feelings &thoughts?
RAWRR!
i wish i can go back in time, where i was still with them, when i never met you.

11:02 PM

♥ Friday, June 04, 2010

i just wanted to write

hmms,

mixed feelings for today. meaning mood swing :/
today's the last day of mid-semester test, super happy cause that marks a temporarily break from textbooks.
however, i lost my waterbottle! ): ): ):
i left it at my exam venue, and only realise that when i was on the bus way home .
for all these years, waterbottle is the thing that i change most frequently .
Either it's spoilt or lost . T.T

&another thing for me to emo.
Was suppose to go to scarfo outing on saturday &meet my secondary friends on sunday.
But now, both cancelled ):
[actually scarfo outing is not cancelled, but chose not to go cause my close friends most are not going, pointless for me to go ]
Have to rot at home.
Was so excited just yesterday.
All i have is me, myself &I .

Overall, it's emo emo emo.
Well,
Chinhui, you just have to get used of being alone &lonely .

but, can i still wish for that someone out there that's always there for me, no matter rain or shine, to appear?

10:02 PM

♥ Tuesday, June 01, 2010

i just wanted to write

hellos ..

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY JOYCE KOH; my bestie!
love you always ♥♥♥

&also HAPPY BIRTHDAY SI LIN & YOKETING!

back to reality, i just had my POM paper ..
3 more papers to go, have to chiong already ..
Looking forward to my term break (:
So going to shop, play, ton, slack &sleep! :3

Byes (:

12:08 AM