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"If there's one thing that makes you sad,
there will be another thing that will make you happy. "

♥ Thursday, February 25, 2010

i just wanted to write

Gosh!
I'm sick now . Down with flu, fever, sore throat &cough.
Just forced few tablets down my throat . Some pink, some yellow .
Kind of reminds of the period of time during O's when i was sick, having to swallow all those terrible medicines .
Luckily today was my off day, BUT! Tomorrow i have to work, i'm losing my voice, how am i suppose to serve customers and talk to them! Great . I'm so not going to take MC to have my comms. cut .

Isn't this fate? I was suppose to quit at the end of this month but just extended two weeks, &now that im sick. Forcing me to quit? I wonder . Hope i'll get well soon. Cause my appetite is getting worse .

Watched the TV just now, saw the trailer of "The Ultimate Gambler" . The lead actors from Death Note, the "L" & "Kira" are acting in it! I'm so going to watch it, no matter what .
In cinemas on the 11th March (:

Wish myself good luck &get well soon.
End .

9:33 PM

♥ Tuesday, February 23, 2010

i just wanted to write

hmms ..

As what i've written on my wall in fb, life is indeed terrible for me now ..
I think i'm getting anorexia soon, or im now?
Basically now i only take in one cup of milo & a bread/slice of cake in the morning and one more meal in the afternoon/night ..
Today, i couldnt even finish my Mac's pancake &the harsh brown ..
If it was last time, after finishing the Mac i will still be hungry for ice-cream ..
So long since i last ate ice-cream .. Well i stop eating ice-cream is also because my colleagues who see me eat ice-cream like so frequently in the past said i was like a kid .. =.=
RAWR! so, i stop eating it .. Unless someone gave me a treat .. (:

Learnt how complicated can it be in the adult world, through the conversation from my colleagues .. Wish i can always stay in my simple world .. &need not face those complicated and evil human beings ..

This is part two for my 18th feb post

1.12am
I just finished bathing .. Thought about alot of things when i was bathing .. But its all related to one topic - Friendship .
To me, relationship are all the same, no matter friendship or BGR . Its about trust . Between humans, if they have secrets with each other, they will never get true happiness with each other or enjoy each other's accompany. I believe this is not the first time i posted about such things .. When i feel there's something hiding from me, i feel very uncomfortable ..
When i choose not to ask, means i given up on you and i will also stop telling the things on my mind to you because i feel that since you're hiding something from me, why should i tell you everything .
Your act already defeats the purpose of a best friend.
When i introduce you to someone, i will say that you're my best friend.
But once i introduce you as a 'friend', i truly mean the place of you in my heart.
Probably i wont even need to introduce you anymore ..
Being my best friend is a dangerous thing as it is a one way route ..
Once you're my best friend, in the future, it can only be either best friend or a familiar stranger .
No second option.
I can live without someone but i cant live without anyone.
Conclusion, i know there's secrets, but its too late even if you tell me everything or deny so, it wont salvage anything.
A broken mirror will always have the crack even if you piece it together.
It will never be the same again .
In life, sometimes you get a second chance. But not every time, this time you missed the only chance. You chose not to tell me and i have my choice too.
And that explains my attitude. 1.33am .

The above i dont mean to let anyone read it yet. When i'm ready to do so, you'll see it ..
So dont try means to read it ..

that's it for today, bye .

10:19 PM

♥ Monday, February 22, 2010

i just wanted to write

只為愛上你
词：蓝小邪
曲：杨子朴
编曲：吕绍淳

如果说这世界不够完美不够好
一定是在等我们
亲手给它变得美好（愛上你~）
就像爱看起来会那么少
一定是在等我们（愛上你~）
一起勇敢寻找一起找到

一片片落叶为开出个花园
手牵手挨过整个冬天
每只蝴蝶为了飞为了翩翩起舞
先做一个茧

最美海岸线总是要很蜿蜒
才足够让人忘返流连
你的身边要不是比天边还遥远
勇气怎么出现

当我终于住进你的心里
分享同一个世界
身后错过痛过漫长情节
都变甜美

只有我了解这幸福感觉
美得值得去付出一切
能够遇见你认识你喜欢你爱上你
感谢我每滴眼泪

只有你明白我有多珍贵
好得值得你为我改变
让你继续温柔交换我灿烂笑容一天一天
到永远那一天

爱上你有多幸运像是天使的礼物
我们不要辜负这个幸福一定要更加幸福
如果爱真的是那么的少
我们就一起守护我们得来不易的爱不被打扰

一片片落叶为开出个花园
手牵手挨过整个冬天
每只蝴蝶为了飞为了翩翩起舞
先做一个茧

最美海岸线总是要很蜿蜒
才足够让人忘返流连
你的身边要不是比天边还遥远
勇气怎么出现

当你终于走到我的面前
完成所有的画面（完成所有的画面）
就算苦辣酸甜尝过一遍
只剩喜悦

只有我了解这幸福感觉
美得值得去付出一切
能够遇见你认识你喜欢你爱上你
感谢我每滴眼泪

只有你明白我有多珍贵
好得值得你为我改变
让你继续温柔交换我灿烂笑容一天一天
到永远那一天

像是大雨过后晴朗的天
宽阔而耀眼（宽阔而耀眼）
每个黎明都需要有夜成全
往回看每兜一个圈
每一条迂回的曲线（每一条迂回的曲线）
都是为爱上你必须留的伏线

只有我了解这幸福感觉
美得值得付出一切
能够遇见你认识你喜欢你爱上你
感谢我每滴眼泪

只有你明白我有多珍贵
好得值得你为我改变
让你继续温柔交换我灿烂笑容一天一天
到永远那一天

如果说这世界不够完美不够好
一定是在等我们亲手给它变得美好
就像爱看起来会那么少
一定是在等我们
一起勇敢寻找一起找到

... it's my favourite song right now (:

11:23 PM

♥ Thursday, February 18, 2010

i just wanted to write

hellos readers!

its been a long time since i last posted? I always wanted to update about the happenings in my daily life, but i seems to be too tired or it's too late when i reach home everyday after my work .. Sometimes i wish that my brain was a computer so i can just think about it and i can just update my blog anytime &anywhere .. Ain't that very convenient? But it's kind of impossible, unless i get a phone that can suft the net .. hahahs ..

I've been going out with friends on my off days, wanted to post but too lazy to do so ;X
So just a brief typing of the events (as much as i can rmb, if i forget, remind me! ;P )
. Went out with Carmen, Joyce, Zhi Jie, Daniel, Mengkiat, Wenxun &Samuel to celebrate Samuel's birthday
. Went out with Carmen &Joyce cause tio pangseh by the others who was suppose to come. Slack at Compass point &Suntec the whole day doing nothing
. Watched 'The Wolfman' with Carmen, Joyce, Daphne, Si Lin, Zhi Jie &Daniel . Sixian joined us after her JC lessons. Went to pool with Zhijie &met Hongkai, Kianbin, Donald and Max . Played two rounds, felt my skills sucked like hell . Though i really like playing pool but i wonder should i continue playing ..

Ohya, on several occasions, i actually coincidentally met katherine cause both of us are on the way to work &going to take MRT .. Only one time i met her on the way home which was her last day of work .. So good! Talked with her alot on the MRT, knew more about her through the chat .. I can only say katherine &gina are both the same, they are shy when they meet strangers .. You can only see their 'true self' when you're close enough with them .. They're really a good friend (:

Hmm, knew alot friends through work, age ranging from 16 to 50 years old .. Lols, but the closer ones are guys cause the girls i dont have much time to spend with them &most are not of my age..
I feel like naming them out ..
Guys - Azman, Nizam, Dayson, Warren, Weihong, Zac, Shun, Shawn, Victor, Kenneth, JB, Farhan
Girls - Charotte, Candice, Judy, Layting, Ada, Lyn, Shidah, Camille, Norin, Elaine, Josephine

These are the collegues i knew, they are really good to me! ^^
I feel kind of more mature facing a totally brand new world with having my family or my best friends beside me cause i wont have them to rely on in my world of working .. Though you know that you're alone but you know soon you wont be .. Because new friends will be standing by you soon ..
&it makes me feels good to have a world that they dont really know much .
Because they also have a world that i dont know much ..
The more we go out, the more i feel that they are closer to each other than im to them ..
They seems to have endless topics to talk about which doesnt involves me.
I seriously feel that they have something that they dont want me to know, maybe it's my illusion or it's not serious. But it feels terrible.
I know the excuses they will tell me when they see this but there's always a choice.
Hence, i chose not to probe or trying to know what's happening in their lifes ..
I know that when poly starts it will worsen, the distance between us will gradually increase .. Just like what happened that year, when i missed the person so much yet to know that im the least important to the person know ..
It really made me lose faith in 'BFF' ..
I dont want to see the person there in poly, i dont want to see the most familiar stranger walking pass by me yet not realising it was me .. I hope i'll never have to see you in there cause i really really dont want to recall how you made me lose faith ..

I felt like deleting the above after finish typing it, but my heart tells me i should just post it because this was the reason why i created a blog - to let people know what im thinking &make myself face the fact .. Humans, dont ask me any questions about the above, i wont answer .. I didnt know how i can type and type and type from happy event to things as such ..

Forget it, another day of work tomorrow .. Hope just no more ridiculous or annoying customers tomorrow .. I still have to be metally prepared for my poly life where people are telling me how tough it will be having to study law . Even before the school starts, i start to fear for the worse .
I hope i can cope with the stress .
Someone out there, please bless me .
I'm afraid i might just collapse anytime, anywhere .
can i believe in 'tomorrow will be better' ?

P.S. at 12.24am, sometime after i posted, i then realised that both of them have the same blogskin.
Is this fate or what?

11:25 PM