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"If there's one thing that makes you sad,
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♥ Tuesday, February 23, 2010

i just wanted to write

hmms ..

As what i've written on my wall in fb, life is indeed terrible for me now ..
I think i'm getting anorexia soon, or im now?
Basically now i only take in one cup of milo & a bread/slice of cake in the morning and one more meal in the afternoon/night ..
Today, i couldnt even finish my Mac's pancake &the harsh brown ..
If it was last time, after finishing the Mac i will still be hungry for ice-cream ..
So long since i last ate ice-cream .. Well i stop eating ice-cream is also because my colleagues who see me eat ice-cream like so frequently in the past said i was like a kid .. =.=
RAWR! so, i stop eating it .. Unless someone gave me a treat .. (:

Learnt how complicated can it be in the adult world, through the conversation from my colleagues .. Wish i can always stay in my simple world .. &need not face those complicated and evil human beings ..

This is part two for my 18th feb post

1.12am
I just finished bathing .. Thought about alot of things when i was bathing .. But its all related to one topic - Friendship .
To me, relationship are all the same, no matter friendship or BGR . Its about trust . Between humans, if they have secrets with each other, they will never get true happiness with each other or enjoy each other's accompany. I believe this is not the first time i posted about such things .. When i feel there's something hiding from me, i feel very uncomfortable ..
When i choose not to ask, means i given up on you and i will also stop telling the things on my mind to you because i feel that since you're hiding something from me, why should i tell you everything .
Your act already defeats the purpose of a best friend.
When i introduce you to someone, i will say that you're my best friend.
But once i introduce you as a 'friend', i truly mean the place of you in my heart.
Probably i wont even need to introduce you anymore ..
Being my best friend is a dangerous thing as it is a one way route ..
Once you're my best friend, in the future, it can only be either best friend or a familiar stranger .
No second option.
I can live without someone but i cant live without anyone.
Conclusion, i know there's secrets, but its too late even if you tell me everything or deny so, it wont salvage anything.
A broken mirror will always have the crack even if you piece it together.
It will never be the same again .
In life, sometimes you get a second chance. But not every time, this time you missed the only chance. You chose not to tell me and i have my choice too.
And that explains my attitude. 1.33am .

The above i dont mean to let anyone read it yet. When i'm ready to do so, you'll see it ..
So dont try means to read it ..

that's it for today, bye .

10:19 PM