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♥ Thursday, April 23, 2009

i just wanted to write

Lalas.
Today in school, played a game with Carmen, Joyce and YeungLing. I give them 2 choices, and they are supposed to guess which one i chosed.
Example;
Q: 1 or 2
I chose 2.

Q: door or window
I chose window.

all these are choosen upon no logic, just which one i preferred and they pratically spot right on what i like most of the time. Almost sprained my ankle while crossing the road today ;X its was really pain alright. Okay! i will be careful next time. >.<
These 3 friends of mine really do know me inside out, especially carmen knows what im thinking, and Joyce knows my mood, reactions, and etc. Hahas, lalas ! Never had a friend that knows me so much, throughly. Uh-oh, next time if got any secret cant hide from them liaos. hahs! ;D

Sighs,
this few days we got back our test papers.
Sometimes, i really hate this period of time, not only i will be sad if i didnt score well but also the pressure i have to face. Its really tiring when you are being labelled as a "pro" in some of the subjects when you "do well" and somehow you are NOT SUPPOSE to do "not well" in it. Its is like double pressure lurh. What if i didnt do well this time, its somehow become even more embarrassing than the norm.
I dont want to be compared to others, its very scary. Especially so many people out there is going to overtake my score by 1 mark or less. And few days ago, someone also said "You so pro in chinese, you go ... lah!" . Which made me feel so uncomfortable.
& now my classmates keep call me some nicknames, which are suppose to be positive ones but it makes me feel that i dont deserve them. You see, Once i dont do well, the nicknames will become a burden.
I feel so down. Especially, today when i got back the chinese paper, which i know i will not do up to my standard. Cause when i was doing the paper, i somehow had alot of questions that im unsure of which in the past i would usually be confident in.
and the paper one, i was like didnt revised a thing for it cause of the IFD have worn me out. I even wrote wrong for the format. x.x
So my score sucked in the 1st paper, then one of my classmate who thought she have done quite well, went around asking people for their score and of course, mine too. I didnt want to tell her.
I dont really like to compare with people who "wants to win me" & she practically wants to be the top in every subjects, and went around asking for other people's score if she, herself scores well.
This is really not my standard, im not surprised if anyone surpassed me as i've fallen into the "trap" in paper one, and i've so many question idk how to do in paper two. Sighs.

Well, whatever, My mood isnt that good this few days. Sighs.

6:55 PM