It's been super long since i last posted a post.
Apparently, my life has been kinda boring but busy though.
Plus i'm addicted to tumblr .. so yeahh, there goes my blogger :/
However, i recalled recently that i've made a promise to myself that i want to make this blog last as long as possible ..
So, while waiting for Qurai to end his class then we would go for lunch, i shall post! ^^

Just finished TNS not long ago .. It was kinda fun to know many new friends and had lotsa fun ..
But, we all kinda lost contact when it's been barely a month only ..
Well of course, i've learnt that i can't have my hopes or expectations high because the higher it gets, the harder you fall.
And in most of the situation, no one will be there to catch you at the bottom of the mountain.
But still, i still feel kinda disappointed ..
No matter how impossible it may be, i would still always clutch on that little hope called miracle.

Actually, it's not only this incident but much more .. I'm actually used to having friends turning in the acquaintances but not close friends ..
Well, actually i wasn't angry but more of disappointed ..
I didn't know how to face you cause .. it feels damn complicated.
And i actually placed a pretty high expectation, and hence .. i had a great, hard fall.
So .. i think that i pushed everyone out of the private circle to the public circle.
If you don't understand, here's the difference.
For people in my private circle, i would treat them .. differently.
Like i would tell them many things that i don't tell others.
And they would be like of some sort of priority to me, like whenever and whatever i do i will think of them first.
Whereas, people in public circle are just normal friends .. We, perhaps, would hang out and chit chat now &then but i would never divulge anything personal to them nor show much of what i'm thinking ..
There you go ..

Again, i don't know how should i placed my trust in some thing called friendship.
Because, no matter how long it have been, it seems that it will never escape the clutches of end.

Okay, i shall end that topic.
I will be super busy for this whole semester, so many projects &assignments one after another. Plus, my holidays are equivalent to school days.
Just took a CDS during the midsem break & gonna take GC during my September break ..
This few days have to do my group projects and my individual journal ..
Sighhs!

Anyway, yesterday while i was flipping through my primary and secondary's report book, I realised that actually my grades are pretty average ..
Most are like grade 2 /3 or B's/ C's with only few that are 1 or A.
I wonder why people always think that i'm smart?
Honestly, now when i look back, i don't think i am.
But for now, i'm gonna to chiong for my GPA.
Found some sort of motivation or the desire to win ..
I had always attained whatever my goal was at the end of primary and secondary life ..
This time ain't gonna be any exception.

19th May 2011; Thursday

Celebrated Hongkai's birthday &took polaroids with Carmen &Joyce! ♥















20th May 2011; Friday

TP's CCN day with CIS! :D